Monday, May 4, 2009

An Explanation

I’ve been distant lately because it feels appropriate. I do this when I’m reevaluating. I arrange things, move them, erase them. Compartmentalize, organize, redecorate. Try not to place too much emphasis on things that are gone; be excited about things that will happen. I shift. I try to acknowledge everything and then forget most of it.

My conclusion: change.

For starters, I’m changing blogs – I will post the link to my new one when I have it up and running. This journal has treated me well, but it’s time. It’s times for a lot of thing. I’m also working on a website per the advice of some professionals in the publishing world. And finally, this summer I am moving – as soon as July. I haven’t decided if I am going to Portland or Chicago. I lean toward one for a while, then the other. Unless a huge, completely unforeseen opportunity presents itself, it is time for me to leave. I’m nervous and excited about this. I feel strongly that it is the right decision. Oklahoma has been good to me and I want to leave before I’m bitter. I want to look back fondly on this part of my life.

It is important to know when to leave. It is also important to know when to stay. I’m actively practicing that first part; I’m working on understanding the second.

To forward motion,

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